Today was a very retarded day. I was being tested on things that I learnt very briefly, a very long time ago. And I couldn’t really get it right because I couldn’t really bring myself to care. And everyone was standing around, making snide comments and judging me.

It was a really tough day to go through. Nobody would acknowledge my presence until 2pm in the afternoon and then I got sort of blamed for being really freaking slow when nothing that went wrong was really my fault except being disinterested which I’m not sure you can blame me for entirely since I have 0 experience in this.

I just really wanted to go home. And now that I am, I’m still feeling like shit because of today. I’m getting separated from my friends more and more every day and there is nothing that I can do about it but sink deeper into the ocean of disinterest and be left alone.

In case you are wondering what I am “not interested in”: I am in the military.

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