Last night I was at Tzehern’s place for an amazing Christmas meal. We stuffed ourselves silly with delicious turkey cooked by his chef-uncle-who-is-a-genius.

Anyway we hadn’t met up in a while but I think it was nice that we keep some traditions like a yearly turkey meal because there’s at least a little bit of consistency somewhere in life. And it’s nice of him and his mom to invite me even though I’m not family (and everyone else there was, haha) just cause my family doesn’t celebrate Christmas.

So right now I’m sitting in camp while on duty. Super huge waste of time as usual but at least nothing crazy is going on. And it’s raining so the weather rocks! And I got to sleep for like 3 full hours in the afternoon. And the food today isn’t all that bad.

So I had a lot of time to think about things today and while this year has had some good moments, so much of it was bad and I can’t wait for it to be over. This is probably the last bad day of the year (fingers crossed) so I hope the following week goes well. I’m going to spend it swimming in social obligations, meeting up with friends I haven’t seen in months and people who have been asking me to hang out with them but whom I haven’t had the time or energy to meet with. I feel like all I keep doing recently is hang out at my house with Edwin, so I decided to earn some brownie points with my old friends. Hahah

Once the year is over though, I’m going to spend next year a lot more dilligently. I feel like in the past months I’ve been bogged down by the army and things have been pretty inconsistent and shitty. But now that I’m almost half a year into army, I’ve found a nice rhythm and I’m having a bit more freedom where I’m at so I’m gonna put my energy into my work and life outside of army and set some goals for myself so I won’t be wasting the 2 years.

I’ve been feeling pretty lost in the past few weeks cause of numerous emotional things that I can’t really talk about but it’s been getting to me. So I decided that the best thing to help me feel better is to put my energy into my work and what I’m passionate about. I hope next year will be better.